December 2012
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And then
You start getting paranoid.
“we need to talk next week” about..?
You start getting paranoid.
everyone is loaded up in work.. but you.
You start getting paranoid.
programmer number 1, can you do something? No I`m busy, can we do it in 5 minutes?
You start getting really paranoid.
about this thing called work and how it relates to your competence.
I’m really really..
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Das Mädchen isst Brot
Right now, I could study programming, I could study german, I could play one of the 7 games I bought recently, I could go to sleep, I could watch movies I bought recently, I could read books that I bought recently.
Typing this I realize that I’ve bought a lot of things and I don’t use any of them, this might be a way of me telling myself “hey, go do something”,...
September 2012
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IF
And I should be working..
I’ve been thinking lately about how I got into programming, it has been some months since I last posted anything and now I have a job as an ABAP developer, it’s some sort of coding for a major system used on huge companies..
This is totally contraditory for me, I listen to punk/punk rock/hardcore every single day while coding just to remember me what my...
September 2011
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Notes from the underground
Again, what is my object precisely in writing? If it is not for the beneft of the public why should I not simply re-call these incidents in my own mind without putting them on paper?
Quite so; but yet it is more imposing on paper. There is something more impressive in it; I shall be better able to criticise myself and improve my style. Besides, I shall perhaps obtain actual relief from writing....
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Reffer - Shift
My life is changing again...
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Hey, little girl
Sorry if I am rude sometimes, I’m not doing it on purpose.
Sorry If I don`t show how much I like you, I have a little trouble doing that, but don`t doubt it, I like you.
Sorry If I seem a little distant when I`m near you, I’m trying not to screw things up saying stupid things.
Sorry If I don’t let you try to impress me, I’m already impressed.
Sorry if I don’t let...
August 2011
6 posts
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Sam I Am
I’m what you created now don’t break me.
I think it’s what both of them are thinking, if not, something close to that
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Título: Sam sou eu
Eu sou o que você criou, então agora não me quebre.
Eu acho que é o que eles dois estão pensando, se não, algo próximo disso
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Someone missing
It’s good to know that you´re not the only one who is experiencing these things.
This will be interpreted in the wrong way.
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Is it fun to think?
just thinking, thinking a lot.
I should go have fun instead.
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Books != Television
Reading a book is like watching television for me, it almost serves the same purposes.
Television: You sit, you watch tv, your mind goes into a idle state and hours go by and you’re absorbing useless information!
Book: I read, I don’t understand anything of these great novels and time goes by, the difference is that sometimes the information isn’t totally useless.
But how can...
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If something looks white, then it must be white, even if no one calls it white.
That’s what I think.
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Three voices.
A received message. Hey blue girl, I have to say something. I think we are in good terms now.
Thanks, you made me a better person. I think I’ve learned with my mistakes. A silly smile on the subway.
Hopefully I’ll be a good kid now. The start of a good day. In that small time we had to talk.
It’s funny how these sentences made sense together but no one will really understand them.
Now, just to...
July 2011
12 posts
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I'm Fissiparous(something like that) at a bus...
“So, let’s eat something?” “Sure” “Yeah, whatever”
“I’ll stay here with our stuff and you guys go pick something to eat, i’ll go after”
There’s like 6 choices, I could eliminate 3 of them easily, but I can’t pick anything. 3 choices and they won’t affect my life in any important way. And easily, I slip into...
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Sup?
I just realized that the name of the blog doesn’t fit my life at the moment, actually, it hasn’t beeing fitting it for some time now.
Lksucks sometimes, and the fact that it isn’t right now, doesn’t exclude the possibility that it may sometime!
I still may have to change the title. suggestions are appreciated
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Les Oiseaux blancs, les oiseaux noirs
This is how it goes, I turn on the machine, I don’t want to but that’s what I do, it starts working and what it does is, it paints the white birds in a pitch black color.
and then you come near me and with the simplest gesture, the simplest words you change everything, the birds are all white again.
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I’m not indiferent, I just lack the means to express myself.
and maybe,...
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So You Want To Be A Writer
if it doesn’t come bursting out of you in spite of everything, don’t do it. unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut, don’t do it. if you have to sit for hours staring at your computer screen or hunched over your typewriter searching for words, don’t do it. if you’re doing it for money or fame, don’t do it. if...
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Thinking
I just can’t seem to turn off this machine that turns ivory into kerosene.
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Eu simplesmete não consigo desligar essa máquina que transforma marfim em querosene.
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Rivets - Crazy (Live)
Don’t make me...
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“Je ne vois qu’infini par toutes les fenêtres.”
“Through all the windows, I only see infinity.”
“Através de todas as janelas, eu vejo somente o infinito” – Charles Baudelaire, Les Fleurs Du Mal
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Because every sentence I could write right now is too bright and I can’t hide them in the usual shadows of this place.
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Porque toda sentença que eu possa escrever agora é tão brilhante e eu não consigo esconder...
=]
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Rivets - Motivation
Go!!
Don’t be afraid of...
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Note to self:
I talk like a lawyer when I’m nervous.
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Eu falo como um advogado quando estou nervoso.
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Sometimes
I think my fucking problem is that I want to be in everyone’s good side, I can’t stand one person angry at me, I don’t want that.
And that’s why I’m fucked up and that’s why I miss good things.
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You can’t satisfy everyone.. or can you?
friends forgive each other.. don’t they?
Someone will read this and tell me to control myself, to stay calm.
...
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Tada
Doubts, I have them, you have them. There are several levels of that thing, and some of them, this kind, consumes you, eats you from inside out, you think of all the possibilities and you don’t want any of them to be true. They are all, and here is a word I like: Troublesome.
am I going mad?
I like when I go mad anyways.
oh well
life kinda sucks some times.
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June 2011
4 posts
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Introduction to Reffer’s cd Interference(the...
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Life
is made of choices, all we have to do is recognize the pieces of the game and make out what’s substantial
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Millencolin - Hellman
No matter what I feel for...
Everything is just fine
April 2011
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It’s fucking elective amnesia… _________________________
É uma merda de uma amnésia seletiva..
February 2011
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Scared shitless
That book, House of Leaves, I’ve finished reading it and it always brings these things up, I wonder why.
I was sleeping, I woke up, I think it was 2-3 in the morning, don’t really know, didn’t check the time. It was too hot, so I removed a bit of my blanket, left my back completely exposed, so cold, what a mistake. Then It happened.
I couldn’t move anymore, just like...
January 2011
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I’ve got nothing to write, but I want to anyway.
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Não tenho nada para escrever, mas eu quero escrever mesmo assim.
December 2010
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Look What Happened
Five or six years resume into a few hours of conversation, I asked for a kick in the balls and I got a kick in the balls, surprisingly, I’m not angry, but with every 9,192,631,770 periods of the radiation corresponding to the transition between the two hyperfine levels of the ground state of the caesium 133 atom, I get more and more sad.
Why is that I like her so much, that I can’t...
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Rise Against - Injection
Do you spend your days...
November 2010
2 posts
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40 minutes
40 minutes waiting for a bus, just thinking, thinking about everything…
and I gave up, decided to come back home, but for some reason I was extremely sad.
Did try to figure out.. when I got out of the subway, I went to the market.. after walking around there for a while I realized that I didn’t know what I was doing there and why did I go there. I think I’m finally losing it,...
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Do it
Separate emotion from reason.
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Separe a emoção da razão.
October 2010
3 posts
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Face to Face - Chesterfield King (Jawbreaker...
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I still
have dreams about you.
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Título: Eu ainda
tenho sonhos sobre você.
September 2010
5 posts
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Missing Memories
“Why I feel my feelings Independently of what you think?
Why I live my life Indifferently of how it tastes?”
Garage Fuzz - Missing Memories
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Título: Memórias perdidas
“Porque eu sinto meus sentimentos, independentemente do que você pensa?
Porque eu vivo minha vida, indiferente do gosto que tenha?”
Garage Fuzz - Missing Memories
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ham
Face washed, after a hot, boring, you can also call it dull, day.
Sandwich on hands, a ham, cheese and mayonnaise on a french bread sandwich. Soda really cold on my favourite mug.
And as I sat there, I thought that this was the best reward I could get.
and it really is.
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Título: Presunto
Rosto lavado, depois de um quente, entendiante, você também pode chamar de aborrecido,...
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Rules
We are moved by rules. No, wait, we aren’t.
We are moved by some other stuff, but we have to obey the rules.
Rules imposed by others, rules imposed by you, even common sense is a rule.
I’m trying to make rules for myself.
1: Don’t give up, you always do it too soon.
2: ?
3:brookus> stop slacking off.
and I want 2 more, and a rule number 2 too
sleepy
sleepy
gonna...
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what to do?
what to do? what to do? so much time, so much work to do.
so little time, so little work to do.
It seems I’ve been blocking emotions, and they are coming back.
love at sight? No, it has always been here, it never left. Like a ghost, trapped between two worlds. Inside me, but trying to leave.
love? Isn’t that a bit too much? maybe.
Caring for the same person for 7(1) years. not...
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No Book
Today.
15 minutes earlier, finally earlier, not late, and I forgot it, so it is just me and my music.
I’m hungry, but now isn’t the same time as the “15 minutes earlier” time, it must be 1 a.m at least.
all this nonsense drove by some confused mind of someone wanting to sleep somewhere.
Should get some sleep and stop procrastinating
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August 2010
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Small Talk
On Facebook, and I didn’t ask those people if I could post this…
Yurika Kosugi : There are 3 things in this life that can never turn back: the arrow that was shot, the spoken word and the opportunity that you missed.
3 hours ago · Comment · · Share
Fernando Merino Levadinha: And believe, missing the opportunity is, mostly of the time, the worst option.
2 hours ago · Like Adriano S...
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Oh.. the memories..
Street Bulldogs -...
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Nap
My Highschool was a really big and long nap.
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Meu colegial foi uma grande e longa soneca.
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Egg
I can’t really make a post, I like to write and I like to post stuff, but it is hard when you are worried.
I have to grow up and I have to become an adult in like what? 5 months? What if I’m unemployed? What If I don’t solve my problems? What if and what if andwhat if and more and more “what if“s.
I felt like a fucking adult this week, I managed to call 2 people and I went to a place to do...
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